Missing him

Ibu is missing my ex boss. He was good, full of knowledge and a thinker. We and other friends used to travel to Kuantan - KB and we were quite close. I am missing him so much sebab Ibu suka bersembang dan berbincang dengan dia. He was knowledgeable dan banyak ilmu Ibu dapat from him. His knowledge was beyond mine because many things actually Ibu tak tahu. When we were travelling dia selalu shared tentang ilmu dia... ilmu hadis, ilmu dunia dan ilmu akhirat jugak and many more. We talked about world and current issues as well. And Ibu bukan setakat dapat ilmu and at the same times dia selalu bagi nasihat sebagai orang yang tua dan berpengalaman. 

Lepas dia pencen, memang Ibu rasa kehilangan dia sebab dia selalu lepak dan bersembang kat bilik Ibu. Sunyi bila dia takde.

And right now, Ibu sangat2 perlukan kawan yang sealiran dengan Ibu. So that Ibu boleh bertukar pendapat dan gained more knowledge. Here now, tiada siapa2 yang Ibu boleh sembang dan berbincang tentang ilmu akhirat dan ilmu2 agama because Ibu sangat perlukan ilmu2 tu sekarang.. I really need to talk dan discuss with somebody... Ibu is so lonely right now.. So, bila ibu jumpa something new... Ibu just kept it alone and keep digging and digging for more.. I have more input but I produce no output.  May be u dont understand..... 

I just wondering camne my ex boss sekarang. Is him OK... is his project success as he planned? he changed his phone no. 

I pray that he is always healthy and happy with his life now.... 

Finally..

Today Ibu and a few peoples ada discussion at our director office. Actually, Ibu just replaced people that absent today and because tht people in under my supervision, so Ibu the qualified person to replace. 

After the discussion, Ibu braved myself to approach my bos and sampaikan pesan Tok Mek. My bos and TokMek actually kawan masa muda2. Sebenarnya dah lama Tok Mek suruh bagitahu bos Ibu that TokMek and TokAyah knew him so much. Tapi Ibu takde kesempatan nak jumpa bos Ibu in person. So after Ibu approached and told him about Tok Mek, Ibu rasa lega. Ibu bukan nak suruh Pengarah kenal Ibu pun, tapi cukup untuk sampaikan apa yang TokMek pesan.. itu aje... 

Alhamdullillah... Ibu rasa lega.

Takde tajuk

Selamat pagi. 

Actually Ibu wrote this yesterday. 

This morning, Ibu drove from Tokmek's house so early in the morning, 6.15am and manganed to arrived at the office at 7.40am. Ibu sangat penakut and Ibu is so sorry that Ariff inherites that trait from me. Ok, Ibu actually planning to get out as early as 6 am tapi Ibu takut nak lalu kat kawasan ladang kelapa sawait in the dark, so Ibu wait until 6.15am dengan harapan Ibu akan jumpa kereta2 lain yang dalam perjalanan ke tempat kerja yang jauh. Unfortunately takde kereta langsung pagi tadi. Ibu bawak kereta samabil berdoa semoga cepat sampai ke simpang jalan besar. 

Hujan so heavy couples of day ago. Ibu so worried and already can expect that our house will have banjir as usual, so Ibu pun ajakla anak2 Ibu utk lepak lama2 sikit kat rumah TokMek sementara air banjir kat rumah kita dah surut. Alhamdulillah, hujan dah tak selebat 2 3 hari lepas but still masih hujan. Whatever it is, Ibu sentiasa bersyukur dan berdoa agar Allah turunkan hujan yang bermanfaat ke bumi ni.. 

So, today after work, Ibu will go back to Tokmek's house again and InshaAllah tonight Abah will come and pick us up.

So lesson for today is , never judge peoples. Orang yang selalu judge peoples biasanya orang yang selalu rasa diri dia bagus dan one of them is Ibu. Starting from now on I'm should always remind myself. I are nobody in front of Allah, Ibu hanyalah debu2 kotor yang berterbangan di depan Allah, no matter who am I today if but still it guarantee anything in akhirat unless Ibu forget all about duniya dan try to impress Allah for my akhirat. 

then, sambung lagi... my friend to the next door, pasang lagu2 cinta cintan yang dulu2. Ibu hate that songs sebab lagu2 macam tu memang melalaikan. Dulu masa Ibu kecik2 masa sekolah rendah, memang Ibu layan lagu2 camtu.. then Ibu stop sebab Ibu tukar minat kat lagu omputih. And now, semua lagu Ibu dah tak minat sebab atas kesedaran dan hidayah Allah kurniakan kat Ibu. Lagipun lirik2 lagu ni kadang2 sangat memesongkan dan melampau pujian dan sanjungan sesama manusia. Kalau lagu2 omputeh, kalau tak tengok betul2 lirik, memang mengarut. Ibu masih dengar lagu sekarang, tapi sangat jarang2. Ibu cuba elakkan dari nak nyanyi2 sebab banyak penting lagi Ibu kena ingat dan hafal selain dari lagu2 yang melalaikan.... 

So, itu sahaja Ibu nak cakap.. Orang nak nyanyi biar la. Ibu tak condemn mereka.